1. How do you feel about fanart?

I am very picky when it comes to fanart. This is primarily because most of the fanart of me is of myself with someone who hurt me immensely, to put it mildly. I mostly prefer fanart of those I was close with, rather than of myself, because of this. Sadly, those are rare to come across, because they are not particularly popular characters.

2. How do you feel about fanfiction?

Similarly picky. I don’t even bother checking; I know that it’s just going to be of me and that person, rather than with those who actually cared about me. But I do have a couple saved that are a comfort to me, so it isn’t like I am against it as a whole.

3. What does the fandom usually get right?

Honestly, I haven’t paid attention to what the fandom thinks about me for some years. However, I’d say that it’s likely that they’ve gotten my irritability right. My struggle with connecting properly to others, as well.

4. What does the fandom usually get wrong?

Again, kind of not in the loop, but most things having to do with Satanick. There is no reason why I should have any feelings that aren’t loathing for that filth, and this applies to canon, as well.

5. What do you miss about your world?

It’s hard to articulate. As a Devil, the world and I were pretty connected. I miss the sights. Taking baths in lava pools. My scales and warmth. Being able to fly. My horns and tail. Being able to create life from flames and the energy that came from it. The darkness of it; it would be good for my sensory sensitivities. The sun of this world is too much.

6. Who are you missing right now?

Rieta, generally. She was the only one I could trust. I knew that I could rely on her to support me, even though I was still inevitably suspicious of everyone around me. She was the only one I felt I could actually turn my back to and have some semblance of feeling that she wouldn’t stab her claws into it. She is typically who I miss most when in intense shifts. She was always by my side, even when she didn’t have to be.

Also, sometimes, Poemi. My daughter. If things had been different, I would have spent more time with her, and my son. But she was so adoring towards me. I was too frightened of betrayal to really accept it. But if I could, I would love to get her some kind of treat in this world.

7. Is there anyone you hope to never see again?

I suppose it would be no surprise for me to answer Satanick. Siralos, too, but Satanick outweighs even those feelings. Being in this world, being free from his constant physical torture, is one of the positive aspects of my current state of being. I am finally away from him, from both of them. They can’t hurt me here. And I have absolutely no desire to ever see or interact with someone kin with him again.

8. How canon-divergent vs. canon-compliant are you?

In some ways, extremely canon-compliant, and in other ways, quite canon-divergent. As an ongoing canon, this is one where things like that aren’t stable. For instance, one way in which I am canon-compliant is that my memories largely line up with the general events in the TGG game, and also, DSP later confirmed that Rieta was the only person who I could trust. However, Licorice never existed for me. My only children are Adauchi and Poemi. I also have no love whatsoever for Satanick. It’s details like that that make it a bit tricky to talk about exactly what I fit and what I don’t.

9. What were your gender and orientation in your timeline; was your identity canon?

In my world, I was a quoiromantic asexual. At the time, if you asked, I would have had no idea what you were talking about, but the label is consistent with my memories. For example, I cannot tell you what, exactly, Rieta was to me, aside from my closest advisor, because I could not distinguish between platonic and romantic attraction. However, canonically, I am a bisexual with heavy gay leanings. I feel that this difference has led to some canon divergence.

10. What helps you feel closer to your source (in a positive way)?

In a positive way, huh. I’m not really sure if there’s much. Rieta and Poemi were probably the only aspects of that life that never acted to hurt me, so seeing art of them can be nice.

11. Do you use your name from your source?

Yes, though it’s been years since anyone has used it. It was much more common in highschool, both from a friend of mine and by those in a Mogeko Kin Network I was part of. It makes me feel nostalgic towards those times.

12. How do you feel about doubles?

I am not fond of them. While it would be interesting to compare some experiences, it is not at all worth the disorientation and unhelpful beliefs it brings me. I simply would rather not see them at all. Also, I have no trust at all towards whether or not they like Satanick, so if I ran into one that sang his praises constantly, I would have to remove them from my sight for my sake. It always makes me doubt my own memories.

13. Is your fiction-based identity spiritual, psychological, or something else?

I don’t care. I say things like “that life” and “memories” because those are the words that are most useful comparisons to my experience, but it isn’t important to me why I’m like this. It’s not like I’ll ever know.

14. What’s the biggest difference between you and your canon self?

We’re actually quite similar, so it’s hard to say. I kind of want to just say “sexuality”, since I’m asexual in this world, but I don’t know if that’s the biggest difference... The level of power is quite different? I don’t have the ability to conjure flames from my hands here. I feel like this is a bit of a weak answer.

15. What’s the biggest similarity between you and your canon self?

Our short temper and distrust in others. We can’t stand feeling like others are looking down on us or planning to hurt us. We isolate ourselves from others so that they can’t do anything to hurt us. That hasn’t changed.

16. Do you prefer when people are familiar or unfamiliar with your source when they meet you?

Maybe unfamiliar? It really depends. If the one I’m speaking to doesn’t know my canon self, then they won’t have any preconceived notions of how I’m “supposed to be”, and also won’t have prebuilt ideas of how awful and villainous I am and how they don’t want to speak to me because of it. So that does help, since I can talk about my experiences without the label of “Ivlis the Flame Devil who did all that bad stuff in canon” attached to me. But it can also be awkward since I can’t really be separated from all that, either.

17. What’s your favorite thing about your source?

Maybe that we have a lot of cute art? Like, the game itself that depicts part of my story is quite cute. I love pixel styles. We have character portraits that change expressions, too, so I used to use them as icons in conversations, which was fun.

18. What’s your least favorite thing about your source?

I’m my creator’s favorite punching bag, nowadays I’m only ever drawn with the person who has hurt me over and over until I couldn’t fight back anymore, and they claim I’m actually in love with him, when the story itself is so absurdly painful that it’s a surprise that can even be considered. And I don’t doubt that any new art or game that comes out in the future will depict something that feels completely antithetical to my entire experience. This is, obviously, my creator’s freedom, but that doesn’t mean I don’t privately feel bitter about it.

19. Do you own any merch of your source?

Not really. I do have a copy of a WatGBS manga volume, but that isn’t really “my source”. I’m only mentioning it since I kind of consider all of the DSP-verse to be my source.

20. Do you feel comfortable in your fiction-based identity?

If I’m understanding right, yes. It is fairly obvious to me that I am, enduringly, Ivlis.

21. Who are you open with about your fiction-based identity?

Some fictionkin-friendly spaces. I was also open about this with a friend in highschool. No one else. This kintype, especially, has some distinct hatred that it draws, so I am reluctant to disclose it except vaguely.