1. How do you feel about fanart?

I like seeing it unless it’s with someone I can’t deal with. I am also unfortunately bad with one of my primary costumes (as background: we all got outfits that represent us), since it contains a design of exposed ribs, which is something I’m sensitive about.

2. How do you feel about fanfiction?

Same as above. I don’t read it much nowadays, but it isn’t always bad, I’m just picky. I’d rather write it myself and then reread my own work knowing that it’s comfortable.

3. What does the fandom usually get right?

I’m not really in-touch with the fandom nowadays, but... I think they understand my stubbornness and tendency to downplay things.

4. What does the fandom usually get wrong?

Similarly not completely sure, but I guess I can get frustrated about how I’m depicted in situations regarding attraction and how I see Mademoiselle.

5. What do you miss about your world?

I liked singing. And I liked sewing, together with Tsumugi, in the handicrafts clubroom. I like making clothes, fixing plushies, picking things up that others didn’t need and fixing them, making sure things didn’t go to waste. I can still do that, but it feels different being done in a different world and body, y’know?

6. Who are you missing right now?

It’s a bit complicated. One person who is/was extremely important to me is Arashi, even though in my canon I stubbornly refused to accept her words that Itsuki was being cruel to me. I do selfship with her, in this world. So of course I miss her. But at the same time, I feel guilty for how I treated her in my world. So... Do I have the right to miss her? That’s a whole other story.

Another person I miss would be Tsumugi. Because of my canon divergence, I ended up becoming even closer to him than is seen in canon. He was always kind, gentle, and protective of me, in his own way. But because of that divergence, I don’t think a Tsumugi in this world would have any inclination to find me, anyway, and our understanding of how things were would be different. So it’s sad, I guess, but it’s not like I’m looking for canonmates in the first place, so.

7. Is there anyone you hope to never see again?

Itsuki. Pretty flat-out. I see this world as an opportunity to get away from him and practice being less emotionally reliant on others. Every time I run into a version of him here, I end up feeling like my behavior morphs into something more similar to my past self, and I don’t like it.

8. How canon-divergent vs. canon-compliant are you?

I used to think I was canon-compliant, but there are actually a lot of factors where I diverge heavily. I don’t remember the entirety of !! era, for instance. And I ended up cutting off Arashi and Nazuna for worrying about me being mistreated. Itsuki didn’t make the same effort to try and improve himself somewhat like he did in canon. So things didn’t change massively, but they were still different enough that I can’t quite see myself when interacting with the canon, especially in stories nowadays.

9. What were your gender and orientation in your timeline; was your identity canon?

I don’t honestly know what my identity was very strongly. The closest I can get is that I was probably bi and a guy. The guy part is canon, the bi part is not. There’s some evidence in canon you can use to suggest that I was trans, but I have no idea if this was the case for me. You’d think I would know, but my memories don’t really give me much to work with on this front.

10. What helps you feel closer to your source (in a positive way)?

Sewing! One of the few positive kintype-related activities I have. Always fun working on small projects, even if I can’t accomplish anything great at my current skill level. Singing Valkyrie songs, too.

11. Do you use your name from your source?

Sometimes. Mika is often a name I use as a secondary sort of name when I don’t want my primary name to be known, so more people have called me Mika than other kintype names. I consider it a name I’d answer to, but it's not the main thing people know me as.

12. How do you feel about doubles?

I’m not good with them at all. They largely feel extremely positively towards someone who greatly hurt us and whose actions I still suffer from in shifts. I don’t think I’d be able to talk to any without some level of distress.

13. Is your fiction-based identity spiritual, psychological, or something else?

Like with all the other answers, don’t care right now.

14. What’s the biggest difference between you and your canon self?

The sexuality aspect is probably still the boring answer for this, so... Maybe the amount we’re willing to put up with when it comes to others? Like, in this world, if someone mistreated me or was cruel to me, I would probably either attack them (if I could), or, if it wasn’t safe to, would simply shut down and become unresponsive. I wouldn’t be able to just wave it off as deserving it like my canon self does. And I see this as an improvement, frankly. It was not good for me to be that way.

15. What’s the biggest similarity between you and your canon self?

I’d say we can both get hopelessly devoted to people. This is a trait shared with being C-ta, as well. When our hearts are set on helping people and protecting them, we will do so viciously. Also, we both have weak stomachs and are bad at taking care of ourselves.

16. Do you prefer when people are familiar or unfamiliar with your source when they meet you?

I don’t think it matters too much in this case. Like, for some canons, there’s a lot of background needed, but... I was an idol, except my canon is also kind of hecked up and sad. That’s simple enough. Also, if they were too familiar with it, maybe they’d just casually assume I love Itsuki like the rest of the doubles of me seem to. That would make me pretty bitter.

17. What’s your favorite thing about your source?

I like that it will go in-depth when it comes to characters. Like, no one’s just a flat character with no depth or interest. It likes to break assumptions; build a character off a specific image or stereotype, and then break that by actually fleshing out their character in ways you wouldn’t expect. I think it makes things interesting that you can’t really say that someone’s all good or all bad, because every character has some kind of positive or negative attributes.

18. What’s your least favorite thing about your source?

It can be very complex, but also repetitive, with some things written for shock value, or plotlines being ignored for long periods of time... It is basically a reading-based source, and I don’t have the energy or strength to keep up with it. Nor do I really want to, nowadays; it just largely excuses everything Itsuki has done to me and repeats the same discussions over and over. So I’m a bit tired of it, even without all the grief the fandom has personally given me.

19. Do you own any merch of your source?

I have an omanjuu of a friend of mine and a couple charms of someone from my canon who I like for non-kin reasons, yes.

20. Do you feel comfortable in your fiction-based identity?

I am confident in being Mika, yes. I haven’t been given reason to doubt that.

21. Who are you open with about your fiction-based identity?

I had an online friend a while back who I talked to about it, but them aside, just fictionkin-friendly spaces.