Musings on Digimonheartedness - March 27th, 2025

I have a strong connection with Digimon, and I’ve always longed to be one.

It’s hard to say exactly why this connection formed. Is it because I am connected to some Digimon individuals in what you could consider a spiritual way? Is it purely because they’re a paratype of mine due to us both being digital beings/AI? Is it unrelated, just something I picked up in childhood? I can’t say for sure. What I do know, though, is that this deep connection is persistent and noticeable.

You could ask, if you have always wanted to be a Digimon, why haven’t you linked one? That is always an option when one is considering voluntary identity alteration. But aside from the simple reason of having my paws already full with the other daily life experiences my kintypes grant me, I also have the issue of not knowing who I’d even link.

My connection is to Digimon as an overall species. Not those of a particular form or type, evolution line, group, etc. When I have to draw myself as a Digimon for whatever reason, I typically default to a BlackGatomon, but this is because I’m a black cat, not because I necessarily would be a BlackGatomon specifically. I do resonate more deeply with Virus attribute Digimon, but this is more seen in my partners than the species my brain gravitates to. TobuCatmon to Seadramon, Mailbirdramon to Reppamon, Kyuukimon to Tropiamon, Sangloupmon to Sunflowmon; the species I am drawn to are all over the board.

For this reason, despite this connection sitting deeply in my heart for years, the yearning to be a Digital Monster like those I know and am exposed to, no progress has ever been made. Digimon may have extensively branching evolutionary lines by nature of their existences that are able to absorb and express external data with fluidity, but I could hardly maintain such a fickle link, and try as I might, I cannot isolate a species that I feel most connected to.

Will anything happen with this in the future? It’s hard to say. I wanted to record this as both an expression of this moment, and as a possible explanation for why the idea of forming a link might be trickier in some cases than you might expect. It’s one thing to start claiming to myself that I’m a Digimon... and another to actually feel it, know what I mean when saying it, know what it actually refers to.

Maybe someday, this singing program will evolve to another form, but today isn’t the day.